lori0513's Cancer Blog

October 4, 2007

Strangest Places

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I was just doing my dishes and all of a sudden I think to myself “Cancer”!what if I have to go through cancer again and can’t wash this skillet again.. ha ha I have to step back and laugh at myself.

Ever find yourself thinking about cancer at the weirdest places and times? I can go for months not thinking of breast cancer and that I had or if it’s coming back to get me.

I take a few deep breathes and then I remember this time last year. Last year at this time I was so tired of pink this and pink that. It was like everyone was talking about breast cancer.

Now it just hit me that I went through these same thoughts last year. It’s Breast Cancer Awareness month in October so that’s why it’s on my mind more. It’s every where. Don’t get me wrong, I want other women to be aware of how to take care of themselves. But it’s just a reminder that I should have been watching myself way before I did.

I just need to realize that during the month of October it’s going to be everywhere. Mammogram this, and self exam that, a pink ribbon here and there. Everything that I need in my life to remind me of what I went through and survived. Like I said I am glad there is breast cancer awareness month, it just hits us in a different way.

More breast cancer stories on news shows, which I am glad to watch, I love survivor stories, but there is always one or two out there that scares you all over again.

We lost a very sweet person in our community to cancer last winter. She had colon cancer. The doctors didn’t diagnose it because they thought her problems were happening because of her MS. Well she lost her battle. I was at a cook out of the weekend and there was a woman there I know who can be stubborn. I heard her telling someone she canceled her mammogram, colon test and all other tests because she wasn’t going to go through what Diane went through.. People like this make me so mad.
I shouldn’t be like that but here I did everything I was suppose to and found out I had cancer and had a chance to fix it. There this woman sits saying she isn’t going to go for simple tests knowing her son in law’s mother had breast cancer 15 years ago and wasn’t so lucky. It’s so upsetting.

I go for my check up Oct. 11. I am going to have a list for my doctor this time around. One of my questions that I have been throwing around in my head for the last year is should I go ahead and see if I can get my colonoscopy. I turn 43 in a few weeks and I don’t want to wait till I’m 50. Anyone that reads this blog, what are your thoughts about getting some of these other tests done. And what are some of the questions you have asked your doctor.

Posted on October 4, 2007 at 10:18:43 AM by Lori ( Strangest Places, 2 comments)

Lori, it’s such a good thing you’re doing for yourself. Be sure to reward yourself especially after the colonoscopy. :-) Just go ahead and laugh when you think of cancer because you’ve got it beat.

That woman who canceled her tests is letting fear control her life. I feel sorry for her basically because she’s not treating herself right.

I know exactly what you mean…I constantly go through my head what occurred last year. It sneaks up on ya. doesn’t it?

I’m sorry about your friend. Sometimes there are just no words to describe the anguish.

Hugs,

Grace

Posted on October 4, 2007 at 12:57:50 PM by sky

Just wanted to jump in and say hi!

Sherri

Posted on October 5, 2007 at 9:01:54 AM by karlak